As sad as it is to say, I don’t have my heart in this blog anymore. I’m going to be moving to a new space soon and starting fresh. I don’t want to make promises, but I’m sure my weight loss journey will continue in some capacity there.
I won’t be deleting this blog because I feel like I’ve grown up here. This space has chronicled my life for the past two years. I don’t want that to be gone forever.
I truly love all the relationships I’ve made here and wouldn’t change them for anything in the world. If you’d like to follow me at my new place, drop me a line or email me at email@example.com. Of course, if you’d like to keep in touch, that’s more than okay. :)
Last day at work. Such a bittersweet day. (Taken with instagram)
Anonymous said: "I really wish I could be one of those people who can diet without really thinking about food all the time. If they need to lose a few pounds, they do, and that’s the end of it. Where as with me, food becomes my central pre-occupation. I hope over time this will leave." -- Did it?
I have been hanging on to this question forever because it is definitely a thought-provoking one.
In my opinion, the answer to this question is both yes and no, with various levels in between. With where I’m at right now, food sort of is my central pre-occupation. I’ve been eating like crap the past few months and I’m trying to get back on track, so I find that by spending my time preparing and planning my food ahead of time, it sets me on the right path toward success.
That being said, I think once you’re “in the groove” of being active and eating healthy on a daily basis, it becomes much easier to take a step back and not focus so much on every little thing you put in your mouth. At this time, you know which foods will make you feel good and which foods will make you feel bad and you stick to that. However, it’s important to remember that in keeping a healthy lifestyle, your cravings for those bad foods will not usually go away completely. In my case, it’s almost been a constant battle and I often times have to take a step back and say “hey, I don’t need that.”
Hope this answers your question. :)
Do not let your mind bully your body. You have done it once, you can do it again. I ask myself if I can lose 100 lbs and I say no way…but if I ask myself if I can lose 10 lbs 10 times…its a whole different story.”
Thanks for the email, Erin. You are totally right and I think this is really something that I needed to hear today.
I walked into my office this morning to find it completely decked out by my amazing co-workers! What a way to begin my final week at this place.
In one way, I’m sad to be losing such an amazing group of co-workers. But on the other hand, I’m so stoked to be gaining a great group of friends.
I accepted a new position yesterday!
It’s bittersweet, really.
My current job is the source of so much stress and unhappiness in my life. But I’ve been here six years and because of that, it’s a bit scary to start fresh somewhere new. It’s a huge leap to move from this bustling world of money, money and more money to a cash-strapped non-profit organization.
But I am so unbelievably excited! Goodbye corporate America and hello meaningful career. I’m so happy that I’m getting the chance to make an impact in the world. Now that I won’t be writing & editing all day at work, perhaps I’ll have more time for blogging, yes?
Two weeks notice is in and I couldn’t he happier.
Side note: my diet has SUCKED lately. Hanging in there, but it’s definitely been tough.
3 p.m. candy craving. These things rock! They take forever to eat and the whole package is only 60 calories.
Finally under goal! I switched my settings to .5 lbs/week instead of 2 lbs/week. Why? Because some progress is better than no progress!
I’m back, and hopefully for good too. And as you might have guessed, I’m here to admit that I’ve been struggling. Bad. I’m trying my best to get back on track, but something always manages to throw me off. I promised to get back into the swing of things after Christmas; then it was after New Year’s; and lately it’s always tomorrow. I’ve always been the person who says “no, start now.” I almost feel apathetic towards my health in general right now.
I don’t know what happened to the girl who was on a roll with this weight loss thing. I sort of feel like I’ve lost her somewhere along the way. I feel like I’ve been on a downward spiral from June of 2011 until now. I’ve gained 23 lbs; I now weigh 286, my lowest was 263.
I feel like I’ve been screwing around for too long. I have feelings of shame, guilt. I still get messages from people telling me what an inspiration I am and asking me for advice. I recently got asked to be profiled by a fitness magazine on people who have successfully lost weight and self-sabotaged the opportunity by not even replying to the email. My confidence is at a low. The lowest it’s been in awhile.
If I’m being honest, I think a few things have kept me away from this space. The first of them being that several people I know in real life now know about this space after the Glamour.com article ran. Before, this blog was on a need-to-know basis, meaning that only the people closest to me knew about it. Now, my co-workers and acquaintances seem to know about it too. I hate that. So I may be changing my URL (as much as I love it) in the coming weeks. I need to have that sense of privacy again. That feeling that what I say can be said without my entire social circle knowing about it.
Another thing that has been keeping me away is how stressed out I’ve been. My boss has put me in charge of a start-up project. You know, to develop during the “free time” I have while working two other positions. It can be exciting, but it’s also the most challenging thing I’ve ever done. I’m swamped, understaffed, and doing the work of 10 people most days. I’m exhausted almost all the time and the last thing I want to do is add more things to my “to-do list” by planning every single meal. It’s hard to do when you’re strapped for time and energy, so most days I settle with just trying to do the best I can.
Deep down, I know that these are all excuses. Life can be hard. But how you react to it is what makes all the difference. I want to be better. I need to be better. I need to make my health a priority.
Thanks for being here, and continuing to message me even though I’ve all but vanished. It means a lot and I hope you’re all doing well. Miss you guys.
Good day today! My office “adopted” 9 low-income children for the holidays. We were able to get every single item on their wish lists.
It’s the little things. :-)
I’m not dead!
Long time, no post, huh? I’m still here, even though I’m usually lurking around (thanks for calling me out on it brooksy).
Life is crazy. Hectic. Insane.
I’ve been eating right for the past few days, but that trend may be shot to shit because of the holiday baking that is set to commence this weekend.
I’ve also been going to yoga every Sunday for the past few weeks which is good because that means that I’ve been sticking to a pattern.
I’m hoping to start blogging more regularly in the coming days—I’m taking a much needed stay-at-home vacation from 12-20 thru 1-2.
I hope you’re all doing well! Miss you guys.
Popping in for a quick weigh-in
Good morning, everyone!
I’ve been insanely busy, so I haven’t been able to post much, but I did weigh in this morning.
Last week: 281.6
This week: 279.4
Loss this week: 2.2 lbs
Total loss: 118 lbs.
Feels good to be eating right again. Hopefully I’ll be able to be around more this next week.
Have a good day!
Weekly Weigh-In: Finally Facing the Music
Well, folks. You ready for this? A week and a half ago I weighed in at 284.4.
What does that mean? It means that I’ve put back on roughly 21 lbs. from my lowest weight of 263.4 at the end of May.
I was mad at myself that I let it go this far. Then the anger turned to sadness, and I spent a few days moping around, feeling sorry for myself.
But then I sorted out my shit and focused on the fact that I am in control of my behavior. I am not only in control of what I put in my mouth, but I also control how I respond when things don’t go according to plan.
So I kicked my ass into gear and ate right. Consistently. And then this happened…
Last week: 284.4
This week: 281.6
Loss this week: 2.8 lbs.
Total loss: 115.8 lbs.
Feeling great. It’s been a LONG time since I’ve had a loss like that. Keep chugging along, keep making progress. That’s really all I can ask for, right?